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December 31, 2004
Resolutions and Realizations
The countdown is coming, folks. 2005, can you believe it? Gosh, just yesterday we were biting our fingernails with stacked up cases of bottled water just certain that life as we knew it would be completely altered by the move of a minute hand to 12:00 on December 31, 1999. I wasn't really partying like it was...I was in my friends living room in VT. Prince's song got a lotta airplay that New Years Eve...and a lot of embarrassing photo's were taken with people wearing those stupid 2000 number glasses. Remember them?
So, here I sit thinking about it being New Years Eve day and realized that I haven't come up with any grand resolutions. Then it dawned on me that I have actually been doing that all year. I guess it was because of turning 30...just thinking of where I am juxtapositioned to the place I thought I would be blah, blah, blah. Turns out...I am not where I thought I would be at all...but i am excited about all the possibilities in my future. I have a pretty good grasp on what I want to keep in the forefront of my mind the coming year and a lot of hope for things yet unseen.
Party on folks. Hug a friend at midnight. (or hope you did, if you're reading this later) Here's a virtual hug from me. (((HUG))) HAPPY NEW YEAR
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December 30, 2004
With Gift Card In Hand
Gift cards can be really great. Especially when they are used to get something(s) I have wanted, but not wanted to spend the money on.
Today, after working a few hours in the office, I decided to take an excursion over to Barnes and Noble to make use of a Christmas gift card, I received. YIPPEE. I'm so excited. I picked up two books that I have been wanting. One is called, "Blue Like Jazz". A friend had reccommended it to me a while ago and I spotted it tonight. A line on the front says, "Nonreligious thoughts on Christian Spirituality". It's by Donald Miller. On the back there's a quote, "I never liked jazz music because jazz music doesn't resolve. But sometimes you have to watch somebody love something before you can love it yourself...I used to not like God because God didn't resolve, But that was before any of this happened." My interest is peaked.
The other book, ...ok, don't laugh... I got partially because of Oprah. Hey, I said don't laugh. It's the now legendary (in some circles), "He's Just Not That Into You". I saw the Oprah show and thought I really needed to read this one...then, it has come up in so many conversations with both guys and girls, that I thought I'd better check it out.
I have to finish the books I am currently reading, but I'm down to 2 at a time, so I might be able to throw another one into the mix. I'm still reading the giant LOTR trilogy, but am more than half way thru. I'm also about 3/4 thru The Journey of Desire by John Eldridge. Good stuff.
I wrote another poem. It's called "Comfort Zones". I'm pretty excited about that. Thanks to my friend Jake for helping me pinpoint what the added thing was that this poem needed...resolve. I think I found that in the final draft.
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December 29, 2004
All Over the World
I am reminded these days how small I am. I can be so..how do you say...nation-o-centric ( Is that a word?...you get my drift), self-centered, ethno-centric. I can be so unmoved by the news some days. Persecution, death, and loss every minute...but for some reason, boy it really hits home when a famous American figure passes away. Do you know what I mean?
With the news of the psunamis coupled with the fact that I am becoming friends with people all over the world through my ostomyland chats, I am recognizing that there is so much more going on than what affects my teeny tiny corner of the world. Does that make my personal pain and loss any easier, no, not really. I'm sure I'll be whining and complaining in about an hour...but I am learning perspective. There are lovely people in all corners of the world who are in deeper pain, more lonely, more needy and more lost than I. I want to have a heart to cry to the Heavens for them and to ache for them every once in a while instead of thinking about myself.
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December 28, 2004
Art in the Closet
What is it about an empty page? A new journal, an untouched canvas, a blank word document...For me, these are all exciting things. It's like the allure of a white wall to a child with a fistfull of crayons or an urban artist with a knapsack full of paint cans.
Aren't you thankful for the creativity embedded into us? Can you even fathom God's excitement as he began to create the Heavens and the Earth. Wow. Talk about endless possibilities. We all have different outlets for that creativity...the arts, parenting, teaching, public speaking, cooking, leadership, on and on...I even have a friend who finds joy in organizing paperwork at her office...it's her art.
I love that we all have different passions and desires inside of us. We really do. Sometimes, they get all dusty and shelved away, so we can forget. It's like every once in a while, you open up that one closet door...the one with everything stuffed in ... like in a comedy...where everything comes crashing out...basketballs and ski's fall to the middle of the floor. Then you see "that one thing". "Hey look what I found" you say and then pick "that thing" up and start to use it again.
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December 26, 2004
Fun Stuff and Not so Fun Stuff
I just got an official email back from Fuze Magazine and my poem, The Yard Sale that I shared in the blog before should be on this page this week or next: http://infuzemag.com/creative. How fun. That site is becoming one of my favorites with the reviews, blogs, and creative section.
So, how was your Christmas? Mine was different, but even though I was not at home where I would have loved to have been...I still was surrounded with loving people. My brother and I followed our tradition of exchanging gifts on Christmas morning then watched some Christmas cartoons together. I then spent the afternoon with a really fun family. They made me feel so at home. Today I spent the afternoon with some other really special friends. It was good to have a bit of a slower paced Christmas...although for me, it was a lot compared to my recent schedule.
I wish I could say everything was hunky dory with the "situation" but I've had a couple of major mishaps this weekend. I will be SO glad for Jan. 27th to come along. I keep thinking I am at a place where I can get my schedule back to normal, but unfortunately that can't really happen until there is some security with my "situation". Blah, blah, blah.
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December 25, 2004
Happy Birthday to Jesus, Our Lord
Happy Birthday Jesus. May you not be forgotten this day, or any for that matter.
You are the ultimate gift giver. You are the true meaning of Love and Sacrifice. You are the only role model who we can undeniably say is perfect. You are the Super Hero that conquered the ultimate villain and even death. You are closer than the family who knows me better than I know myself. Your creativity is unmatched. You cannot be defined with words, but deserve every utterance of praise in our being.
May you not be forgotten, especially this day.
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December 24, 2004
Powerful
Praying with friends is an amazing thing. I love those moments that pop up unexpectedly when there is an opportunity to pray together. (especially those uncontrived, natural ones) It can take a fun night of hanging out to a deeper level of intimacy. It causes me to feel more purposeful, more alive and thankful...for them, for Him for everything. I'm thankful that I can go to God at any time. There is just something about the knowledge that some of the same people I can enjoy eating, playing games, working with or goofing off with have a connection with me at that deeper spiritual level. It's irreplacable. I desire that all my friendships could come to this place ... where we can move past the surface and even from our caring relationships to a place of unity under The Almighty.
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December 23, 2004
30 Going on 13
I have made it. I'm several hours into the 30th birthday. So far, so good. My friend Jenn gave me a fun birthday card today with a magazine cut out of Mark Ruffalo. Ooh la la. In case you are unaware of who he is...one of his recent movies was 13 Going on 30 with Jennifer Garner. He was also in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Colaterral and a ton of other movies.
Any Who...because of everything, I haven't been able to do a lot of Christmas shopping. Any, actually, until yesterday. It was fun and I can't wait to get out and do more. I think I may be more of a New Years elf, though...because I know I can only do a little at a time right now.
Karen came over last night to exchange gifts and celebrate my birthday, too. We enjoyed a wonderfully carb-filled Boston Market dinner. Among a throng of cool gifts, Karen gave me this great card game: "There's a Moose in the House". It's a simple, fun and funny game. We had fun playing and Karen creamed me two out of three rounds. It will be a fun game to teach my parents. How could you go wrong with moose?
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December 22, 2004
Ho Ho Ho
Well, my next surgery date has been set...Jan 27th...that works out for a lot of reasons. The sooner the better. The nurse tried something new again today, hoping to find the magic solution to getting things to work correctly so I can have some peace and relief for the next month until surgery. Sweet sweet surgery.
Santa Claus left me a package at the office. Really...it was addressed from Santa on a UPS label (that I think may have been a fake). Anyway, Santa left me a mighy amazingly decorated little Christmas tree that brought a tear to my eye. It was decorated in cash. I am so blown away you may find me in the middle of a corn field somewhere tomorrow. : ) If any of you know Santa...please make sure he/or they or who-ever....knows that I am more than touched. Again, I will say I am learning daily that God will supply all my needs...and He is taking care of me. Even when I feel discouraged. Even when things aren't going my way. Especially then, maybe....
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December 21, 2004
Stats about my hometown
I found this today at the newspaper where I'm from: http://samessenger.com under Highgate (my hometown). My friend Leon has a column there, so I was perusing. You may or may not find this interesting...but it's better than hearing about my missing colon every day. haha (it's ok to laugh here...gotta have a sense of humor)
Population (year 2000): 3,397
Males: 1,704 (50.2%), Females: 1,693 (49.8%)
Median resident age: 34.3 years
Median household income: $41,556 (year 2000)
Median house value: $95,800 (year 2000)
Races in Highgate:
White Non-Hispanic (92.8%)
American Indian (6.5%)
Two or more races (2.4%)
Ancestries: French (23.6%), French Canadian (19.3%), United States (13.1%), Irish (9.1%), English (8.1%), Italian (3.6%).
For population 25 years and over in Highgate
High school or higher: 79.0%
Bachelor's degree or higher: 8.3%
Graduate or professional degree: 1.5%
Unemployed: 5.5%
Mean travel time to work: 27.3 minutes
Highgate compared to Vermont state average:
Black race population percentage significantly below state average.
Hispanic race population percentage significantly below state average.
Renting percentage below state average.
Number of college students below state average.
Percentage of population with a bachelor's degree or higher significantly below state average.
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December 18, 2004
This Rocks
Today was the first time I ever went to a chat session anywhwere online. I found a great one at one of the ostomy websites I've been visiting. It was really great to chat with others who have been where I am at today (literally today). I was able to get some answers to some questions, but also just have company while I am sitting here at home. It is great to know I have access to people who understand. Everyone was very friendly and welcoming. It was a site from the UK, so that was cool. There were others from the US there, too...it was really neat. Some people are going through the exact same stuff as me...some worse, some better. Good times, good opportunity.
I was hoping to go out to the drug store today, but alas...complications were a road block. I hope that I feel like a new woman tomorrow for Ann's wedding. It's going to be so great. I'm so excited for Ann and Chuck. It's also going to be a great gathering of people I love.
Here's something: Going into the surgery, finances were THE major concern for me...and guess where the provision has been unbelievable? You got it. Why am I surprised...God takes good care of me...So do my friends and family and church and even strangers...again, why am I surprised...
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December 17, 2004
I Can't Believe My Eyes
I'm a bit disturbed. I just watched Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer on t.v....and at the end where they sing the title song, they had a claymation video featuring claymation Destiny's Child singing the theme song. Did anyone else witness this? Do they really need to try to modernize Rudolph? Gasp. Horror. I"ll be o.k. It makes me feel old, clinging to the traditional and abhorring the idea of anyone trying to modernize such a classic. Sigh.
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On the Bright Side
I realized today that although this will be a very different Christmas because of not being home with my family, there is a bright side. I will get to be a part of some of the celebrations and traditions with my friends here in Lancaster. I have always kind of wished I could have my cake and eat it too. This year, I will get to taste a different flavor.
Today my mom had knee surgery, and I got a groggy phone call from her. All went well. Yay. I wish I could be there for her after all she has done for me.
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December 16, 2004
Pork Frenzy
Pork and Sauerkraut, huh. There's a lot of hubub in these parts about Pork and Sauerkraut and New Years. I've been working on Public Service Announcements for the radio station and there are quite a few Pork and Sauerkraut dinners going on. I decided to do some research and found out that it is a PA Dutch tradition. Apparently it's thought to be good luck if it's the first meal of the New Year. I think a lot of people aren't so worried about the luck as they are the food. I'm not too sure about sauerkraut. I never heard of this tradition in VT.
New Years Day for me was always just the day after New Years Eve...lots of resting involved, left over hors deuvres, probably a video or something. That is UNTIL I attended my first Mummers parade in Philly. Now there's something to see. I enjoy the outrageous costumes and fun music and just getting all bundled up with my friends. Last year I mummed it up from home and watched the parade on tv. Not quite the same. That may be the situation this year, too since it's a long day. Don't think I'll be quite up to that.
Going back to the subject of the other white meat, I had a delicious meal provided from my friends the McNaughtons of Pork, rice and applesauce the other week. It was something I had never tried, and was very yummy. I also really appreciated the moose tracks. Thanks friends.
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December 15, 2004
HA
The UPS guy was just here again and he actually said, "Me again". (see previous post-A Different Kind of Santa...)
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Thirtysomethings
So, I was watching Ellen today. Good times... and Mekhi Phifer was on and talking about his 30th birthday coming up. That sorta puts things into perspective...he's an attractive, perceived as cool kind of guy, I think. So I started wondering what other famous people either share my birthday or turned 30 thirty this year...Here's what I came up with without searching very long or hard:
Ryan Seacrest turns 30 the day after me. Also, Jimmy Fallon, Leonardo Decaprio, Jerry O'Connell, Kate Moss, Seth Green, Penelope Cruz, Jewel, Alanis Morrisette and Hello Kitty all turn/turned 30 this year. Drew Barrymoore will in February.
So there you have it. What does this mean...not much. I'm not going to think too long or hard about it...but I found it interesting to think we were learning to read, drive, and the like at the same time, (although I guess most of them probably had a Bentley or ten while I drove my dad's Delta 88) and now are hitting the big 3-0 "together". They are still cool and hip (especially Alanis, Drew and Hello Kitty)...so woo hoo...30 can't be that bad, right? C'mon, don't take me that seriously...what do I care about famous birthdays...as long as I can shake a leg to Dancing Queen and something equally typical like We Are Family at my wedding one day...HA. What the? Am I being serious?
In other news...my computer (the office computer I am using) was being very fickle today...but after a few slaps upside the head and a good dose of Aleve; the little iBook is ready to surf once again. PHEW.
Yesterday I thought I took 3 steps forward with my nurse in the AM only to take 2 steps back in the evening with another catastrophe. That was so frustrating. I lost it. Once again Aaron saved the day and cheered me up making faces and being silly with me. He's the best brother ever.
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December 14, 2004
A Different Kind of Santa and An Embarrassing Guilty Pleasure
UPS, my brown clad Santa, keeps coming with more packages ordered by the ostomy nurse. Who knew adhesives and plastics could be so exciting. Today I received something called "New Hope" Clever, huh. I can't help wondering what the UPS guy thinks. "Boy this girl gets a lot of packages, she must be a shop-a-holic." "I wonder if this girl has a job" "Why does it take her so long to get to the door, I can see her on the couch". "Wow, does this girl live in her pajamas" "Ooh, cute slippers." : D
What I'm wondering is...am I going to get billed for these things or does insurance cover them? and "Wanna come in and have some Peppermint tea, I'm bored here by myself?"
When I finally go back to working a full day, do you know what I'll miss? Little House on the Prairie re-runs. Today was the Mary going blind episodes from 10-12. They show two episodes in a row and I can watch and work at the same time. I hope I get to see some Almonzo episodes. I always thought it was cute that Laura called him "Manly". haha.
I've also gotten into watching cheezy makeover shows. How awful, huh. How superficial...another extension of reality t.v. that I am sadly, sadly sucked in to. It's funny, sometimes I think the people looked better before the makeovers...not always, but once in a while. Today, there was this guy who dressed in a tshirt and peasant skirt. I thought he was really attractive. The makeover looked good...but he looked like a completely different guy and I would have been more attracted to the pre-makeover version of him...the crunchie looking guy with bushy curly hair vs. the Tom Cruise looking guy.
I'm thankful that I am now able to be comfortable enough sitting to watch t.v. for more than one show. That's been a recent development
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December 13, 2004
Veruca Salt
Our friends at fusemagazine.net have a link up for a teaser preview for the new Willie Wonka. I can't wait. Ben Henshaw, where are you? He's a friend of mine from college. We worked together in an after school program and he was a huge fan of the book and movie. He read the book to the kids and we watched the movie with them several times over the couple of years we worked together. Ah Barkley Elementary in Phoenixville, PA. Nothing like working for the YMCA. That was a good college job. After school programs and summer camps. Right up there with Tape World at King of Prussia. I used to get free Godiva from a girl that worked there...just a few shops over from me. Ok, sorry...nobody cares about my reminiscing.
Welp, the inevital will soon happen. December 23rd I turn 30. I won't wear all black or anything. It's not that big a deal...at least I hope it won't be. Gosh, most of my friends are into their 30s and they are doing just fine. I'm sure it will spur some more soul searching. I'm not where I thought I'd be by this point in life...but I couldn't imagine not being where I am now, either in a funny sorta way. (Not right now as in me sitting at my kitchen table in the middle of a work week sitting all propped up on pillows, but right now meaning this season of my life of course).
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December 12, 2004
Yay, Dad
Congratualtions to my Dad. Last night Aaron came home from work with a big smile on his face asking if Dad had called. I knew exactly what had happened. Earlier in the day I was talking to my mohter and she said, "Well, Daddy is out for one last day of hunting". So, I called home at 11:30 at night...much past my parents bedtime...and my parents both answered. Sure enough, after all his travels this year including out of state...he got a deer in the woods behind our house. I am so happy for him. It has been a long time and I think a part of him was resigned to the fact that hunting was going to be just a chance to get out into the woods either to be alone or with the guys and maybe spot a deer...it was a really big deal to him, a sense of accomplishment and pride. He's had some medical problems that have made it extra challenging and I think he might have thought that it had taken away the possibility of achieving this. He is also a big fan of venison meat, so the whole providing meat for the winter thing played in to his desire to "get one".
I have memories of going out into the field across from our house in my Mickey and Minnie mouse jammies with my dad watching the deer frolicing. We also have a tradition of going on drives on the back roads around Highgate counting deer. I never was that into the idea of killing them because they are so fun to watch. I do feel like my dad is a respectful hunter, though and don't have a problem with it. I also am a fan of venison.
So...yay daddy. You did it.
By the way, I didn't make it to church. Last night there wasn't much sleeping involved and then when I did fall asleep when I woke up I was pretty sore and stiff. Guess I'm not quite ready for "first thing in the morning" events out of the house quite yet.
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December 11, 2004
Another Small Step
My Dr. said it was ok to try driving to see how I do, as long as I don't experience too much pain when I hit the brakes. I just took a drive through the apartment complex to the mailbox. It worked out ok...a little pain over the bumps...but I think I might be able to handle driving to church tomorrow. I'll have to see how I feel in the morning. It will be hard not to sing, though, and I know that would be way to much stress on the stomach muscles to sing. I'll have to sit towards the back so that I can get up and pace if I need to. We shall see. I've slept a lot of the day today, so maybe that will give me enough energy to use tomorrow.
I got another card in the mail today from the office. These people are crazy. Gosh, it feels good to be missed.
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Carbs and I Reunite
Life is a funny thing. I spent a year and a half doing Atkins...was quite succesful, really. I had reconciled that Carbs were the enemy. When I found out I was going to have surgery, I had already given myself a little breathing room from the low carb lifestyle. When I knew I was going to be on a strict diet, and in some pain in the near future...I gave myself complete reign...from Krispy Kremes to pizza crust. I felt guilty and I gained back some weight, but enjoyed the indulging.
Enter...surgery. I can remember seeing my weight on the scales every day in my drugged stupor in the hospital. Well, at one time...I remember being shocked at how much weight I had gained. I am only now realizing that I also had tons of contraptions hooked to me and lots of bloating and fluids going on. Anyway, after returning home and weighing myself and watching my body change after surgery...I have now lost the weight and more. I think I am back down to where I got to initially from Atkins. Of course, surgery, some time of fasting and liquid diets will do that. But, since I've started eating again...what am I allowed to eat? Pretty much carbs...mashed potatoes, white bread, white rice, well cooked carrots, pasta, etc. etc. Woo Hoo. I've even had Oreo's because i remember the nutritionist saying they were ok for some reason.
I still have another surgery yet to come in the next month or so. It will be interesting to see what happens with my body between now and then and then after another round of fasting/liquid diet and low fiber diet. I wonder what will end up being my ideal diet and if I will be able to keep the weight off/shedding the pounds.
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December 10, 2004
The Prom
Last night was the Creative Min Christmas party...for me, it was like the Prom. I took like an hour and a half to get ready. It was my first time getting dressed, wearing makeup, doing my hair, etc. I had a great time. It was fun getting to briefly chat with Robin, my best friends boyfriend. (hey, that reminds me of a song). I don't think he hated me...woo hoo. I flew under the radar during the gift game, or else people were being extra kind, because I held onto a Blockbuster giftcard (which was one of the gifts I brought). Woo Hoo. I think I have my eye on the Bourne Supremacy. (and I"m not usually an action film kinda girl.) Any other rental suggestions? I'm sure there are a lot out there that I haven't seen yet. I rented The Terminal and Elf last week with a giftcard from my friend Jenn. (who also has been ridculously awesome in hooking me up during this recovery).
Speaking of movies, my friend Lisa hooked me up with some videos...opening up my world to Woody Allen among other things. One of the things I am looking forward to is getting out sometime and seeing a movie in the theatre. I don't know if I'm ready to be confined to sit in one place like that. I like to get up and pace once in a while. I would love to catch Finding Neverland or Life Aquatic.
Oh, here's a plug for online health message boards. If you have a health related issue that you can't find anyone to relate to about...I suggest finding one. It has really been a big help to me to visit Ostomy sites and read about/chat with other people who are going through or have gone through what I am dealing with. I have even met a Christian girl who was very encouraging before my surgery with suggestions and insight.
I'm off to try for round two of sleep...I got about 6 hours in a row, though...not too shabby I must say. A new record since Nov. I think.
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December 09, 2004
Confession-Nothing to do with Usher
That was a close one on Lost last night. I won't say any more than that for you T-voers out there.
So, my nurse tells me I'm brave this morning. I have two nurses that have been monitoring my situation and helping me with some complications. Wendy, the wound nurse told me she thought I was brave for dealing with some of the complications I have had. Especially the last couple of days and nights. I did an appliance change by myself which was very tricky and scary due to the complications I am having. I don't feel all that brave. In fact last night I was a blubbering mess feeling sorry for myself and wanting this phase of my life to be over.
I am pretty good at putting on a brave face. I've done it for years with the Ulcerative Colitis pain, I did it in the hospital when I was not being accurate with the pain level with my nurse (i'm glad the surgeon could see right through me), and I tend to do it now for my friends and even the nurse. I mean, yes, it's getting better...but there is sometimes more going on behind my smiley face than anyone knows. I can't believe I'm even writing this now, but it feels good.
On a MUCH lighter note....I am taking my first outing tonight for our work Christmas party. I am a little nervous about being away from the safety of home. I am praying that I have no complications while I am there, but will have to be prepared for it, just in case. It should be fun, though. I am bringing along a little pillow to clutch for the belly laughs during the gift exchange game. Dont want to literally split a gut. haha. I'm really looking forward to getting to know Karen's boyfriend tonight. I hope he doesn't think I'm weird...Then again...;ok, I hope he appreciates my weirdness and is glad that we are friends. How bout that...
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December 08, 2004
Sincere Thanks
Before I get started I would like to mention that I am being watched by several smiley face balloons and they are starting to freak me out.
I just wanted to take a moment to publicly say thanks to everyone. Literally, everyone. I have not encountered a single soul in my experience this past several weeks that has not been supportive. From prayers, cards, and gifts, to visits, food, personal care and other provision my church, family, co-workers, friends, nurses and doctors, and everyone in between. People have and continue to take such good care of me. It has humbled me. I will admit that I am more of an emotional support usually than a physical provider for my friends in need. I hope that the examples being demonstrated to me will rub off on me. I certainly now know what it means to have to receive and receive and receive in just about every way. My pride has been challenged in a a good way.
I just took a little current Stacey size walk around the building outside. Oh what the neighbors must be thinking of me in my baggie clothes and oh so stylish messed up hair scuffing along like a granny. Oh well.
Now, time for a nap.
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December 07, 2004
Semi-Back
It's been long...too long...I'm so out of the internet loop. I'll never catch up on everything...ok being over dramatic...but it's nice to be back on the web.
I am the Little Engine that Could. I am the tortoise in the race. Slowly but surely I am getting closer to getting back to myself. Abdominal surgery is tough...I'm not sitting around watching tv all day like i thought I would be. (Although am enjoying episodes of Little House on the Prairie each morning).
There is a lot of exhaustion and pain...but I'm pleased to report that I think I feel an overall sense of wellness that I think is a result of having the diseased portion of my body removed. There is still a lot of road left on the journey to recovery, but today felt like a big step. I am thankful for the opportunity to work a couple of hours from home during this time when I'm not ready for the "real world" yet. My Dr and visiting nurses keep reminding me how dangerous it is to do too much during this time. So, I'm trying to be smart...but it' is great to have something to think about besides when my next nap is, whether to do a crossword puzzle or word search, or focusing too much on what's going on with my new "situation". (being a little cryptic rather than graphic). Things could be much worse...but I'm thankful this is temporary. Hard to believe I'll be back in the hospital in about a month or so. Bring it...
I have a lot to be thankful for. Maybe I'll blog about that sometime soon. For now... just wanted to exercise my blogging muscles and fill you in that I'm working on getting back to me...or even to a new improved me..
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