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March 16, 2004
me whining
Be prewarned...I am about to whine my way through this blog. That may be annoying to any readers...so just thought I'd give you the option now to stop reading.... : )
For the most part I am pretty happy and optimistic about life....I am about to not be that person for a few moments of venting. I am angry with sickness and disease. I hate illness. I hate when my friends are sick. I hate when my family is sick and I hate when I'm sick. Actually, I don't like for anyone to be sick. I have learned that there is a reason for everything that happens...usually not too long after something bad happens in my life I come to terms with the lesson I was supposed to learn from it. Sometimes, that is a lifelong lesson and I realize that may be the case with my Ulcerative Colitis...but I still don't like it...or my family and friends having struggles with asthma, migraines, cysts, Cancer, depression or any other illnesses or discomfort.
I actually was doing very well for several months with my stomach problems, but ever since New Years Day I've been pretty much in a "flare up" over all with some good days mixed in. I don't let it stop me, but I get tired of dealing with it. I thank God for the days that I feel ok or better. I hope they become more frequent again very soon. I have this test looming ahead in May that had to be cancelled earlier this year. I am trying not to be stressed about it, but at a recent Dr visit I faced the fact that if the results from this test aren't better than the last time, I may have some things to think about. For now, I am taking my many medicines and just praying that all the words of healing prayed over me in the past and present will mean the end of this.
I will end this on a positive note...in the midst of the yuckiness of my stomach problems, I have also noticed great progress with some other health issues I had been dealing with for a while. I am soooooo thankful for that and that God helps me get through the bad days and makes me more sensitive to others going through health stuff. I still want it to go away.
The End. I will now put on a smile.
Posted by stacey at March 16, 2004 05:33 AM